I ran away after my last final
With Oliver in my hand and Alex in my ears

and I'm the fugitive

“Male fantasies, male fantasies, is everything run by male fantasies? Up on a pedestal or down on your knees, it's all a male fantasy: that you're strong enough to take what they dish out, or else too weak to do anything about it. Even pretending you aren't catering to male fantasies is a male fantasy: pretending you're unseen, pretending you have a life of your own, that you can wash your feet and comb your hair unconscious of the ever-present watcher peering through the keyhole, peering through the keyhole in your own head, if nowhere else. You are a woman with a man inside watching a woman. You are your own voyeur.”

-Margaret Atwood

I got depressed after maths
It's been two weeks

Mackerel??

I'm a pseudopessimist

"Oliver, we've got something to tell you," Dad says.
'Who's dead?' I ask,
"No one's dead."
'You're getting a divorce?'
"Oliver."
'Mum's preggers?'
"No, we-"
'I'm adopted?'
"Oliver! Please, shit up!"

Always eyes watching you and the voice enveloping you. Asleep or awake, indoors or out of doors, in the bath or bed - no escape. Nothing was your own except the few cubic centimetres in your skull.

1984
-George Orwell

I think I mustn't say that no more because that's what I do all the time the second you cross my mind and you're beyond merely crossing you're now practically living there for a lifetime and the idea of you being there all the time is always so enchanting to an extent I'm joyfully living with it and I wish for it to be everlasting

Somebody just gave me the best compliment of the year
Hard luck to the rest of you, work harder next year

I'll continue posting some quotes from the book

You look pale, and gaze and, put on fear.